diary

2010-04-17T09:27:00.001-07:00

i'm so sleepy): sigh these few days have been fun:)
Thanks to my class for the cake:)
thanks to my dear SN hockey team yellow badge for the surprise at taka:D i love crystal jade! HAHAHA
thanks to my AJ seniors:) jx for your funny fashion sense, van for being so mummy, sophial for just being a pig, shir for mei mao, and jerm for coming down so late but still came:)

my birthday feels..i don't know. i always feel depressed when my birthday is nearing. my mood just becomes bad. weird.

2010-02-09T03:55:00.001-08:00

sorry. just can't get the right words out. can't express myself. sucks.

2010-01-29T06:56:00.001-08:00

don't know why, its only second day of school and i'm feeling kinda sian already. hate being ignored. hmm..oh.

morning was fun. sigh. wish i can have more of such mornings):

cca fair was fun too got a quite pro guy hockey player a senior's senior. he's damn good and funny too(:

well today was tiring. sigh.

whats with poeple's attitude nowadays?

i'm sick of where i am now already.

2010-01-28T05:05:00.000-08:00

scary. new choices. starting all over.

2010-01-27T05:10:00.000-08:00

sigh. everything's come to a standstill. i'm gonna relive j1 all over again. seriously, i really don't want to do it. but..its like the only option that is open to me now. i don't want to go anywhere else. sigh.

bored.

2010-01-26T06:00:00.000-08:00

thought it should be an exciting day today. it was.

why can't things just stay happy and well?

sigh.

i'm worried.

2010-01-07T06:51:00.000-08:00

its at times like this when i really don't know what to do. tell me what to do.

2010-01-06T06:02:00.000-08:00

hmm it feel horrible to be cut off from the world. gives me the moodswing. i feel more normal and calm when i'm back in civillisation. not that i don't want to control my emotions but its easier to just follow where it leads. to the bad or good mood. heh. oh wells. school's starting. i don't know if it is for me. i'm still gonna do the usual last minute homework so that i will feel more normal and think less nonsensical stuff. keep my mind off what i really don't want to think about.

I feel like that right now. somany paths even luck can't help me get on the right path..sigh.

But oh well. life's good. or rather, it'll get better(:

actually, life's never been better.

2009-12-19T07:16:00.000-08:00

every minutes like an hour
every hour's like a day
everyday last forever
but what else am i gonna do
i'd wait forever and a day for you
i wait up wait up
i can't eat i can't sleep
what else could it be missing you so deep
long as i'm where i'm going to
i'd wait forever and a day for you
i'd wait up wait up for you

2009-12-12T07:51:00.000-08:00

ouch. cut myself playing with my cousins today.

seems like i have split personality. i feel like a different person with my cousins. and i become another person with friends. its just..so different. sometimes the switching around becomes difficult. HAHA guess i'm just..weird. different from others in the most extreme way haha

2009-12-11T05:51:00.001-08:00

its happening again. losing everything that matters to me. it certainly feels like that right now.

i don't ask for much. just want to say i'm sorry. again and again.

2009-12-09T05:33:00.000-08:00

sigh after one year, i am truly, truly tired. maybe jc life isn't suitable for me. maybe i chose the wrong subjects. maybe this, maybe that. all these thoughts go through my mind everyday. all the time. life was really..nothing enjoyable for me. maybe not nothing. just..not interesting anymore. i am no longer interested to make friends nor study hard. its stupid, you may say. it is stupid.

my everchanging ,mood is something i need to deal with too. haha sometimes i can't control myself i just want to lash out on someone. and i got nothing, nothing to work for now since now i can't go for hockey nor go out. i am truly, cut off from the outside world. besides the occasional 'study sessions' outside ;) , i am home 24/7, messaging. even the messages i sent out are not replied at times. guess i'll just..live with it. sigh.

maybe it is all excuses. maybe i am really worthless. i can go unnoticed by poeple. sometimes i enjoy the quiet. but when the lonliness overcome you, thats when i know when i am truly lonely. i have almost no one to turn to.

i should get out of this mood. haha.

2009-11-27T06:53:00.000-08:00

well by the way, in case some people thinks that the picture below is a guy, look again! she's a girl la but really cool(: okay i'm into crossdressing but my mum won't let so i'm..quite girly with my dressing already. i mean, i try. HAHA well okay not really. haiya. i don't know but feeling comfortable in what i wear is my top priority. so..shirts and shorts are the best(: sadly, i don't have many shirts and shorts. should get more..i'll save up! anyway, another picture of zhang yun jing.

she's a girl!

bye(:

Have it your way

2009-11-24T07:20:00.000-08:00

Heya. its the first time this month i'm on my blog. can't stop thinking, how can some people just not stop talking? don't they know that it gets hard to listen after a while? oh wells. ah i really really want to watch a movie. Can't wait to watch a movie. and start training. i'm exempted from trainings. sigh. this really..sigh.

Things will get better. the power of positive thinking.

okay. i've got a new idol! She's pretty cool. like her hair. want to get that. I mean, life's short so i want to enjoy myself! Go crazy with short hair and different style(:

2009-11-24T06:11:00.001-08:00

this is quite interesting. watch it(:

2009-07-11T22:03:00.000-07:00

WATCH this! Rod Thomas- her diamonds on Ellen show(:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CQgaGS4BL6I

2009-07-11T21:35:00.001-07:00

It has been pretty hectic recently even though season ended months ago..heh. Gonna start getting fit again! been eating too much.

is this the moment where i look you in the eyes
forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry

2009-06-11T06:39:00.000-07:00

another song(:

Simple Plan- I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I can't lie, every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face
And I'Cuz I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
And I can wait' I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone, it won't stop bleeding
I can wait'I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around, I see your face
The thing I miss the most is, waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, man I wish that I could stay
And I can't lie, every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face
And I'Cuz I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
And I can wait'I can wait forever [I can wait forever]
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
I can wait'I can wait,I can wait forever [I can wait, I can waaiit]

I know it feels like forever
I guess it's just the price I gotta pay
When I come back homeTo feel your touch, Makes it better
Until that day there's nothing else I can do

And I just can't take it!
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
And I can wait'I can wait,I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
I can wait'I can wait,I can wait forever

2009-04-10T00:51:00.000-07:00

The Script: THE MAN WHO CAN'T BE MOVED

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag. I'm not gonna move.
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says "son you can't stay here",
I said "there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year".
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
[ Find more Lyrics on www.mp3lyrics.org/x5th ]
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who is waiting on a girl...
Ooh woah uuuu...
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Mm mm mm...

Maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
'Cause you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag
I'm not gonna move

2009-04-09T22:35:00.000-07:00

next week is an exciting week. I can't wait. Wed need to hand in PI. Man. Its really tough. but i am getting the hang of it(: My professional english language is coming out. WOOHOO! oh yesterday pw results results came out. oh man. Makes me so not excited about my pw. CAN'T WAIT FOR MY RESULTS TO BE OUT! because that means by then pw is over! Its good friday but somehow i don't feel good. tired, yes. sian, yes. bored, yes. Pw made me really sad. research on AIDs. damn. I'm glad i'm born in singapore!

wednesday we had training at ntu. I think the way i sweep has been wrong for..6 years. because after prolong sweeping my shoulder joint suddenly hurt. can't stretch. so weird. and i don't know whats wrong with it. scared me. got me in a really really bad mood cause i missed half the training just sitting out watching my team mates slogging their hearts out running in the rain. ):

We just chosed our new class leaders! (: I think you'll do a great job so relax! You can't be half as bad as i was.

Tuesday is coming. so looking forward to it.

2009-03-26T05:09:00.000-07:00

damn. no american idol tonight. RAH! I didn't even do anythign to deserve this ah. Hockey-its only 3 hours 3 times a week. Don't know whats her damn problem. Most of the time I mug at home she nags. and she expects me to study. Don't blame me for blasting music through my mp3. finally i can study out, she don't allow. and she always say she didn't see me studying but thats what i've been doing all the time. heh. Who's bullshitting who now?

can't take it.

2009-03-26T04:23:00.001-07:00

Jason Ho. With my hairband. That was weeks ago during gp class i think...

WAH today I went to a dj workshop. he called himself..um..koflow. yup. there's a nice meaning to that name. His dj name. Real name i forgot. very normal. Anyways, it was refreshing and kinda fun after all. The turntable, was so cool! The disc is made of wax and is really light. But he said the prospect is...well never mind i shall not say. The whole time me ellai and shuling were zi-highing by ourselves at the back of the LT.

DON'T CALL ME ISABELLE! When the teacher called out 'isabelle', everyone started to turn around and because we five girls were at the last row, they just stared at us like they expect one of us to be isabelle. So then me and ellai went 'Do I look like a isabelle?' HAHAHAHA It was hilarious. Or at least to me. Heh.

Ah after that we had lunch at macs! I was craving for mcwings but i ended up with mcspicy instead. Had mcwings for snacks immediately after finishing my burger. Its really good(: Funny thing happened to weiting when she bought for me the wings.

Cam whores! that was because i've been BEAUTIFYING everyone's phone with my face as wallpaper(: We played zhong ji mi ma and the loser have to eat fries dipped in sauce specially made by shuling valerie and weiting. yucks.

Haven't seen Kris for long. oh man. Don't tell me no one missed her? HAHAH Can't wait for her to be back.

2009-03-21T05:06:00.000-07:00

Friday
Training. Ran two rounds warmup followed by 8 more rounds. Obviously it was terrible what with my recent bout of stomachache. somehow there's this stitch like pain always sneaking up to me when i run. HURTS MAN! Luckily though, we had no after training runs. (: Saiful was in a better mood! phew.
Went to a musical at night with CARINA!(: (stink stink! HAHA okay la you don't stink la.) Cinder Ella Revamped. Storyline is self explanatory la huh(: It was good! And really funny. eerily, the fairy godfather resembles saiful..

Saturday
Mum didn't allow me to go for the cip course. Was at home the whole day. Still am. I forgot how tiring and sian it is to stay at home. But thats how i'm gonna get plenty of rests(: After the three day camp(friday sat sun) followed by tue thurs fri training, I deserve this rest la huh. Heh. Though why I can't go for the cip i really don't understand. It will allow me to complete at least some hours this year rather than spend time next year doing cip when its gonna get busier. sigh. ANYWAYS, my life goes on despite these endless complaints.
There's harry potter! chamber of secrets on channel 5. No matter how many times i watch it, I still want to watch it. Its good! The book is of course, even better!
Oh wells, i have such a boring life. Finished studying only half of chem-moles. Wasn't very productive today.

2009-03-18T05:38:00.000-07:00

LIANNA"S BIRTHDAY WAS YESTERDAY(: BUT SADLY I COULDN'T GO OUT WITH HER TO CELEBRATE):

anyway today was a terrible day. i woke up at 930(thank goodness i didn't wake at 7 again..). feeling a little groggy and ankle feeling bitter. heh. yes not sweet or sour. it hurts like don't know what. must be my sister step on it when she's sleepwalking or something. yeah she gets really vigorious when she sleepwalk..HAHA that was all crap la k so don't belive. Then around late afternoon my mum went into a rage. My phone was confiscated and..well..i coulnd't take any random photos when i feel like it. which is a TORTURE. I say is because my phone is still gone. oh man.

anyway i saw stnicks hockey on The National Challenge or don't know what is that show. WOW. That was really shameless the way the goals were scored. Damn good goal from brender okay. The angle was so small! Good luck to the finals! (:

Oh man. back to the torturous world. I need some music to lift the moody fog around me.
Accidently let slip the f word this afternoon. what a crime.

AH today there's american idol!!!!and aida have to tell me she watched it earlier by two hours? or is it 3 hours? ): i have to stay up to 11 and earlier in the season till 12 because it starts at 10. oh wells..

2009-03-17T07:02:00.000-07:00

Today was..not a bad day(: I had training in school. Before that I woke up at 7.30 to study so as to appease my mum so that she will let me go for training. Remembering what ms tay said on sat night, "Do any of you regret joining hockey?" or something like that. HAHA. then she looked around, stopped at me and say "aiya this one no choice". HAHA seriously, i really love hockey. The sport. Bonds the whole team together. Heh. I know i've said that since forever but its true. Ask any hockey player if they feel attached to the team. unless your team is..um..i don't have to spell it out right? otherwise, yes the team is so very important, the only escape from my studies! because back at home, i don't really have much free time, what with my mum breathing down my neck if i'm not studying and her endless complaints of me not studying (I never see you study, tomorrow you are not going for training!). I am studying really hard now can't you see?

Anyway, today I ran 2.4kim, first time i ran 6 rounds in..dion't know how many months. 9? yup. And my timing was a shocking 12 minutes plus. I didn't expect myself to be so fit and so didn't Ai Jia and Cass. HAHA. They were running wioth me. Think i found my running mates. They run at exactly the same speed as me!(: After the run we did our drills. Then after all the stick work we did more running! On the field. The stupid field was kicked uneven by the soccer players (I think) so my ankle got a little..yeah i don't know how to describe that feeling. Just hurts. And after all that drama, HAHA Seriously no matter how tiring training is its still fun. as compared to doing homework, training is FINALLY over. I say finally because the bloody weather cause me to see white spots after the 6 rounds. Blood all still at my feet. Lucky I recover quickly. And I don't want to get anymore darker! I'm like burnt now):

After training i finally got to drink my PAOPAOCHA! Its been so long! Since like..last month? yeah. (: It was REFRESHING! WOW. Then Jerm, sop, and priya! we foursome went to get sophial's prata. It was delicious(: And apparently she still had dinner at home. OH MY GOSH DENISE I FOUND YOUR BEST FRIEND HAHA.

Then i went to find my parents. After dinner, we walked around and I saw (drum roll please..) CLARICE! SUWENN! AND WANYING! I haven''t seen clarice and suwenn for since seoul garden i think): Oh and i saw MICHELLE during nj friendly(; yes! Then at the interchange i saw mat(: YAY! I'll plan something for us all to meet up soon k!

I just realise i don't know where my archives disappeared to..

2009-03-07T19:54:00.000-08:00

and HANA I'M SORRY SORRY! DIDN'T KNOW HOW POWERFUL MY HIT CAN BE WHEN I'M NOT PAYING ATTENTION): how about this, i hit and fracture all the opponent short corner runout people's hands in adiv okay? NO MORE INJURIES TO HAPPEN! i'm sorry!

firstly, sorry HANA!
second, sorry to sophial's other bruising ankle! my stick very..hard eh?
thirdly, sorry to tsuwie! i nearly took your leg away with me ball..

SORRY PEOPLE! see i'm using my favourite colour for this apology, show how sincere i am right?

2009-03-07T18:34:00.000-08:00

WAH! Saturdays are super fun(; i had hockey training in OLD PA in the morning. think i can improve on my skills even more. then after training, thanks to my newly bought shampoo and soap, I bathed and smell like myself for once! no more borrowing from aida( THANKS!) HER BATHING STUFF AND FORGETTING TO RETURN(: Studying at starbucks later was the most fruitful of all other days. I got free tuition from my maths god

yes thats her, and oh boy did i finish damn a lot of questions(: oh and thats my jacket. recognize it? ah..then its off to my ah ma's house for dinner where there is CRAB! HAHA my dad cut himself peeling for me the crab. aw..sweet daddy. then my long distance cousin from america came! Mary and her sister lil' lamb. lil' lamb likes to touch her head. HAHA

oh yup then thats about it(: can't wait for camp next week.

2009-03-05T03:24:00.000-08:00

i really don't feel like blogging nowadays man. ):

2009-02-07T21:24:00.001-08:00

For the first time, my phone has more than 2 guys' numbers.
For he first time, i'll be wearing blouse and skirt uniform.
For the first time, i'm looking forward to meeting new friends.
For the first time (in don't know how many months), I'm looking forward to training again.
For the first time, I want to go to school.

2009-02-07T19:12:00.000-08:00

Saturday comes and goes. The days past faster than never before. I'm aching all over again! Training at the old police academy was fun. yup. really. though i know it will get more hectic and busy later in the year, I think hockey will be the only way I can relax. I was and am never much of a study type. But apparently if you say that to my mum she'll nag your ears and butts off. Now, somehow, studying seems quite fun. I actually can't wait for orientation to be over.

Back to the topic of training. Training was fun. There's no other word for it. Because somehow, its not as stressful as when I first played in sec 1. To tell the truth, I got sick of hockey in sec 4. It added to the pressure, on top of the O'levels. I wanted to win so much but no one seems to be sharing my sentiments. In words, but not in action. Its as if everyone got sick of hockey at the same time as I did. It was sad that I never got to lead a team to the finals, the championship. And it may seem to be the saddest thing, (HAHA) but I never want to lead a team again. Or rather, none other team but my dearest yelloooooow badges! Dedicated at times, serious at times, and fun all the time!

The seniors asked why I wanted to go AJ. Well, its near my house. And somehow, I want to play for AJ hockey after training once with them. The muscle aches were all secondary. What's important is the sense of attachment after you played with a team. Even just once. After that, playing with any other teams feels weird. Well, what can I say, I guess I followed my heart this time. I went for what I really wanted. The blue and yellow pe attire. The 'factory worker' uniform. And I'm not regreting a single bit of it. (:

2009-01-31T07:32:00.000-08:00

suwenn I won't die! never! oh i realize these days i've been gaining weight like crazy and not running enough, my tummy and legs are all humongous! playing with my cousins caused me to fall and...split my jeans! Now i look so in. HAHA.

2009-01-30T07:07:00.001-08:00

Today i played mahjong! I finally got the hang of it! and i realized i got a piggy friend(: FOO SUWENN!

2009-01-30T06:56:00.000-08:00

new year pictures. not much.

2009-01-23T19:32:00.000-08:00

new school, new people, new environment. Its gonna be like that in a few days time. I'm nervous, excited, scared. But I can't help looking forward to it. Life in st. nicks was wonderful. If the times in JC would be half as great, I would be happy enough.

2009-01-22T21:25:00.001-08:00

oh man. its been long since my last training. like more than 5 months ago. and i'm aching over from one training already! just not used to it i guess. I'll get used to it soon! Holding my stick again for the first time in more than 5 months reminds me of all the time i spent, technically 6 years, playing hockey for st. nicks. I can still remember me and my low self esteem training under the evening sun till 6.30 every monday wednesday friday. It doesn't ends there. Whenever i get home, my mum will complain about me and my stinky clothes and throw me into the bathroom. HAHA. Just to spite her, I'm going to take hockey again in JC. Of course that's not the only reason. I've decided that since my passion lies in hockey, why give it up just because of my mum, or because i'm afriad i cannot cope with my work? Seriously, I think if i just study and study and study and study AND STUDY, I'll be able to pass my subjects, and if lucky, I can pass with FLYING COLOURS! YAY ME!

Alright. I owe Jermaine's friend her AJ shirt. and i decided not to go for their training..thats not a bad choice i hope. Because if i really don't make it there i don't want to have wasted their time mah..aiya! Anyways, it was fun. And i certainly don't mind playing with them. Hopefully no one knows what a jinx I am..

2009-01-12T07:05:00.001-08:00

I couldn't have felt much better than today. ROAR!

never felt more lonely.

2009-01-07T21:28:00.000-08:00

Mayday.

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着
不平息最怕突然
听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今终于让自已属于
我自已只剩眼泪
还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过得快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什么你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念品

我们那么甜那么美那么相信
那么疯那么热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过得快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着
不平息
最怕突然
听到你的消息

最怕此生已经決心自己过沒有你
却又突然听到你的消息

hey yo

2009-01-01T21:06:00.000-08:00

oh. you know, the day before 2009 and the first day of 2009 doesn't seems to have any differnece at all. problems not solved and new ones surfaced. HAHA. I'm so screwed. Plus i don't feel like going out to any where these days. Rather just sleep and sleep. Though i sleep at least ten hours or so everyday, waking up is still a chore. oh, and not to add that these days, i just want to coop myself up at home or just be alone. heh. what a disaster.

2009-01-01T07:14:00.000-08:00

you say you gotta go and find yourself
you say that you're becoming someone else
don't recognize the face in the mirror
looking back at you

you say you're leavin
as you look away i know
theres really nothin left to say
just know i'm here whenever you need me
i'll wait for you

so i'll let you go
i'll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me

take your time
i wont go anywhere
picture you with the wind in your hair
i'll keep your things right where you left them
i'll be here for you

oh and i'll let you go
i'll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me

and i hope you find everything that you need
i'll be right here waiting to see
you find you come back to me

i can't get close if your not there
i can't get inside if theres no soul to bear
i can't fix you i can't save you
its something you have to do

so i'll let you go i'll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me
come back to me

so i'll let you go i'll set you free
and when you see what you need to see
when you find you come back to me

and i hope you find everything that you need
i'll be right here waiting to see
you find you come back to me

when you find you come back to me
when you find you come back to me
when you find you come back to me

Come back to me.
by David Cook

2008-12-30T23:10:00.001-08:00

Its one day before 2009. HAHA well its suppose to set a serio9us tone but i'm not succeeding. right now a really horrible smell is floating around gagging the people in my house. HAHA All the upgrading going on made insects come creeping out from underground and into the house!

Right now, I think i shopuld focus on my future. Where am I going next year. Because thanks to Zhi Ying and her JC talk, I'm so..scared now. Its kinda scary to be facing like the end of secondary school educatio9n. I don't think i want to go through it again.

School's starting soon. It feels weird not to be exited and getting ready to go back to school. Been doing that for..since kindergarden. HAHA. I don't have much of a life. Just study Play eat and sleep. Even if i go out, Singapore's so small. Nowhere else to go to now. Been looking forward to the holidays since the strt of the year but actually there's nothing much to do but laze around. Which i thought would be more fun than studying. Its is. more fun. and also more boring. Its hard to explain this feeling. And i've never been good with words.

Anyways, I watched Bedtime Story yesterday. Its good. GOOD! HAQHA. Because i love happy endings. One reason why i don't really like first rule. The chinese movie. OPr what is it called. Ending so..wow. didn't expect it. But it has a good plot though. Can't say its a bad movie. Heh.

Oh and thanks to denise i fell in love with another song. hAHA. There's like no end. Love story.

We were both young when I first saw you

I close my eyes

And the flashback starts

I'm standing there

On a balcony in summer air

See the lights,

See the party the ball gowns

See you make your way through the crowd

And say hello

Little did i know

That you were romeo you were throwing pebbles

And my daddy said stay away from JulietA

nd i was crying on the staircase

Begging you please don’t go, and i said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I’ll be waiting all there's left to do is run

You’ll be the prince and

I’ll be the princess

Its a love story baby just say yes

me

2008-12-12T04:36:00.000-08:00

well big changes throughout the whole year. i had my hair cut. well..
then there was the sakae with denise and dawn and hiutung and hongwei annd chiaying and audrey and..yeah. i think thats all. then i took photos(:
HAHA i got bad breakouts. oh. then there was cheryl's class BBQ!(: i love the BBQ! and the absolutely delicious stingray and fishes and..wow wow WOW! i love bbq food now right now! oh not forgetting the karaoke session. HAHA. thanks to cheryl. oh and mrs hoo's little girl was so so cute. i can't wait to have my own(: oh.

june

2008-12-12T04:30:00.000-08:00

i visited the changi airport terminal 3 when it was june HAHA the pictures are below. not that i took nice ones. quite awful actually. HAHA. but no worries! you can go there yourself to immerse yourself in the nice quiet surroundings(:

well then there are my cousins. they aregrowing up so fast i can hardly keep track! HAHA. well i did watch them grow up. really! since they were so small in thier cots until now.

she's so cute right? then the other one is hiding under the mattress. well..its suppose to be secret.

anyway, then there was preparation for Os then the prom then now! so fast. all pass already. its getting ready for christmas now! so exciting(:

family

2008-12-12T04:18:00.000-08:00

well, its been long since i posted any pictures(: so now i'm going to show you what i did (if there's anybody out there) for the past few months(:

birthdays

2008-12-12T03:33:00.001-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIYI!

good day(:

2008-12-12T03:27:00.000-08:00

its a good day today(: HAHA i played so many computer games aND AM TURNING INTO A GEEK! yay! HAHA. wah i got so little things to do this holiday. watch tv, play computer games, eat, sleep. oh i watched high school musical 3 TWICE! so fun(:

i love musicals! especially disney ones. HAHA. and lately i've been addicted to the suite life. oh man.

2008-06-24T11:11:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARICE(: MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE.

i'm yours

2008-06-15T04:55:00.000-07:00

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music at the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melody
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved

Am I loved?

HEY HO

2008-06-11T07:30:00.001-07:00

Rainy weather today. very cooling i like(: Its seems not long before when it was raining too. two weeeks have past and i have done much i must say. Just that it will not be enough for me to reach my super high expectation.

Anyway it has been long since i went to novena. I WANT TO GO THERE FOR THE GOOD FOOD!!! and of course because i miss the place): HAHA

Oh back to my studies, its a good weather to be sleeping today anyway. Besides its the holidays! somehow i end up studying much more during the holidays than when there are classes. HAHA. Its suppose to be good right? But I can't help feeling there's something wrong with me. Getting too pressured or something. HAHA! But I feel too happy to be stressed up ah..

ANYWAYS, i can proundly say i finished all my homework! wait, let me hide before you throw the rotten eggs. (: HAHA.

Goodbye Mr. A.

movie

2008-06-09T08:50:00.000-07:00

by the way, indiana jones may be old, but the movie was still as good as ever!

i eat world

2008-06-09T08:42:00.000-07:00

HAHA! i went to the cinema...a few days ago. Forgot the exact date, but anyway, I looked up while waiting for the cinema to let us in the theatre, there, on the screen where they always play movie thrillers, there was a music video.
WOW was all i can say. that is all that could describe how i feel then. Its so cute la the song. HAHA.

Jimmy eat world- always be

I'm alone in this
I'm all as I've always been
Right behind what's happening
She's all lost in this
She's all like she'll always be
A little far for me to reach

.A little something from that beautiful song. (: go listen to it.

song

2008-06-08T08:42:00.000-07:00

You can tell me that there's nobody else (But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself (But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend
all you want
But I know,
I know
Your love is just a lie
Lie
It's nothing but a lie
Lie

colours

2008-06-08T08:23:00.002-07:00

white is so pure. seriously!

empty

2008-06-08T08:23:00.001-07:00

i think no one comes to read my blog one lor then i just write stuff here for my own enjoyment so loser..HAHAHA!

ties

2008-06-08T07:55:00.000-07:00

OH THEN HE SUDDENLY CAME IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA. SO I SQUEEZED MY UGLY FACE IN BETWEEN HAHAHA I'M SO DISGUSTING.

my little cousin still don't know what cam-whore means. HAHA!

feels like its taken centuries ago..

I HAVE MY CRACKED LIP. COULDN'T SMILE PROPERLY. SO SAD RIGHT? HAHA.

i think my cousins are really cute(: HAHA. THEY WERE SO HAPPY TO TAKE PHOTOS.

this is something.

2008-05-30T09:19:00.000-07:00

Trying is just a noisy way of not doing something. wow. i got this from a book. Cool right!! this shall be my motto.

I love food!

2008-05-30T08:37:00.000-07:00

monster!!! RAH! You block the view of the barbecue chicken!! ): HAHA.

food! I am so touched. really didn't expect a barbecue right outside the dnt room. HAHA. its great. so great i was stunned. speechless for a moment. HAHA. it really meant a lot. Thank you.

I love this song now. switchfoot.

2008-05-18T09:24:00.000-07:00

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next
What happens next

[Chorus]
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

[Chorus]

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to moveI dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before

food

2008-05-18T08:32:00.001-07:00

I took a nice picture of the sky with the lemon sweet(: HAHA!

suwenn says i eat a lot of nuggets. no lor. actually i eat a lot of everything. no. I don't eat a lot. Just that she eat very little. and I do appreciate food so PLEASE someone do cook for me(: I would really love it. as in of course besides my mum and ah ma who cooks for the WHOLE family. Not that I don't appreciate it. Just that its not specially for me):. Like sining made the bread for my birthday(: Its simple but it really meant a lot. Like diana gives me the study kits. It works! (:

Anyway I feel like showing off food pictures again. HAHA!

the sky

2008-05-18T08:22:00.000-07:00

Look! there's the one with cable car. small but nice!

It seems like nothing besides the sky can lift my spirits these days. I've been in a moodswinging mode for...since forever. So the sky calms me down! See the beautiful pictures I took. Its unbelievable. Not my photographic skills la. The sky. heh!

2008-05-18T08:07:00.000-07:00

The weather quite hot these days, but who's complaining. it had better be a breezy weather on wednesday 'cause that's the last training for the sec fours. Last official training. Its sad how quick time passes. Though i seem to have an innocent view of things it seems. To me, The last training just means
1: no more playing on the pitch
2: no more playing on the pitch together OFFICIALLY with my beloved sec four 08 hockey people

So fast. Soon, we might even lose contacts with each other. To me, thinking ahead of time is something I have never been able to do. Now, I don't want to do it.
I really think time slipped by too fast. Way too fast for me to be able to use all the time i have wisely. It seems that in a few months time, I would face the biggest challenge yet of my life. so far. And if I don't do something I would regret it when I have to face the result. But there seems to be too little time. Too little for me to build the infrastructure. and there don't seem to be anyone around to help me build it.

cramps

2008-05-04T01:04:00.000-07:00

I got cramps today. Was really bad. But everything's fine now! DON'T WORRY! HAHA. oh like anyone is worrying. hmm..

song- I love it

2008-05-03T08:58:00.000-07:00

I see trees of green,
red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself,
what a wonderful world

I see skies of blue
and clouds of white
The bright blessed day,
the dark sacred night
And I think to myself,
what a wonderful world

The colours of the rainbow,
so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by

I see friends shaking hands saying
how do you do
They're really saying I love you

I hear babies crying,
I watch them grow
They'll learn much more
than I'll ever know
And I think to myself,
what a wonderful world
Yes I think to myself,
what a wonderful world
Oh yeah

Me again

2008-05-03T08:12:00.000-07:00

I feel like burying myself in work. Got to forget some stuff. Sigh.

ME

2008-05-03T08:00:00.000-07:00

My favourite song now is I'm yours by Jason Mraz.

2008-04-29T03:52:00.000-07:00

Today is learning journey day!! I didn't get sea sick, I got good food! Its great the prata I ate. Has all sorts of flavour the taste kind of spread to your entire body and you just feel so happy after tasting such heavenly food!! Actually, I was pretty hungry so everything was great la. HAHA. I must say the prawn noodles I ate was really good!!! REALLY REALLY GOOD!! The soup was like in the colour of curry HAHA but it really reinforce the taste of the prawn. HAHA. Oh. The prawn very easy to peel. heh.

2008-04-29T03:32:00.000-07:00

This is during training on 28/4/08. The weather was terrible and i felt that i'm so lucky to be in the shade! HAHA. but training was fun as when was training ever not fun? (besides when i'm playing terribly...Which is actually all the time. okay never mind)
Clarice decided to take out her secret weapon, the umbrella! Sining was super unglam. HAHA. "Getting a little too comfortable".

Food presents everything else

2008-04-26T08:25:00.000-07:00

Food=paradise. I had good food for my birthday!(: so lucky! WAS VERY HAPPY.

I LOVE MY PRESENTS(: clarice your present for me is your friendship SO DON'T..think so much okay?

2008-04-26T08:08:00.000-07:00

anyway, I didn't have my USB cable at sining's house so cannot upload photos): Now can!

HAHA. I love birthdays! Got surprises. Makes me happy(:

I think clarice look funny in one picture. BUT its okay! wait till its your birthday clarice! Will have very nice picture of you:)

Eunice and Clarice

2008-04-26T07:57:00.000-07:00

Please be there for me.

Birthday!

2008-04-16T03:20:00.000-07:00

Today is my birthday! So i am extremely happy and high this morning. At the forum eunice suppose to play a piano piece but she NEVER LEARN! Then clarice is suppose to play some song for me on the piano: Her ONE AND ONLY PRECIOUS SONG, and i didn't hear it at all!! ): So the whole day I was so sad. Then no present!!!! Not like I really mind presents or not la. Just joking, Clarice! HAHAH! Oh. Then the class sang a song for me!! I realise how happy that made me! until now I can still imagine the voices of all my classmate in class when they sang the song for me. HAHA. Yeah. Thats all. Today is happy day for me I'm leaving all my work till tomorrow!:) Hopefully I won't die tomorrow!
I'm at sining's house now..

clarice

2008-04-14T06:56:00.000-07:00

clarice is my extremely good friend. She makes me smile(: she's currently singing some weird song. sounds funny. but she doesn't know it. So don't tell her. Her singing rocks. oh. fiesta took a picture with her. she wans't happy on that day at all though. BUT I had a GREAT DINNER after fiesta!
HAHA. Oh. Clarice, don't be sad. Cheer up!

more food!

2008-04-12T09:05:00.000-07:00

My aunt's cheesecake is great! i mean, quite good la. HAHA. It has digestive biscuits at the bottom! Damn good! HAHA.

rainy

2008-04-12T08:27:00.001-07:00

I realise its such a gloomy time out nowadays. Its always raining. I can take photos! nice in a way. comfortable to the eye(:

eunice

2008-04-12T07:21:00.000-07:00

eunice is my extremely good friend. she got a very happy face. she don't bully me. I'm happy to be her friend. When I was making my speech, and Lianna was laughing at me, she pretended she didn't know me. I still don't understand what's so funny with my speech though..
oh. she got angry when i went late to accompany her for keypress duty. I'm sorry. Someone once told me I have many commitments to everyone. I said, I can manage. There you go. I can manage it. I try.
ahh. Its fun with her because she can talk about all kinds of stuff with me. I can talk about all kinds of stuff with her. Feels very comfortable. like a mother..but not really a mother. because i am older than her.
HAHA. okay. sorry i take so long!
This for you, eunice(:

fiesta

2008-04-07T01:37:00.000-07:00

FIESTA WAS OVER REALLY FAST! I can't believe its over): i didn't enjoy myself as much as i wish i did. I wish. And of course I'll miss the hockey pitch the most. The nicest pitch in the whole wide world! Thats my personal opinion!The one i trained in for more than 5 years!

The school was transformed for fiesta. I kinda don't want it to change back again.

Oh, qian yi's bubble tea was great(:

Seems like xuekun enjoyed herself much more than I did. HAHAHA.

THANK YOU FOR THE PICTURES!(:

2008-04-05T05:58:00.000-07:00

I was feeling so high on that day. Don't know why. Guess everything always feel alright after a good cry.

These pictures are from someone else. I got no camera. Or it'll all feature me only. HAHAHA. Okay JOKING JOKING.

It was really unforgetable. All that we went through. All the challenges. Our mental blocks. It takes a lot to bring a team together. And i can't really do it well. but what matters now is that this does not carry on in future. I know next year we'll have a better chance. THOUGH it'll be much harder. Moving to a new venue and everything.

I just want to say how proud i am of all of you. Thanks for everything.

nuggets

2008-04-05T05:41:00.000-07:00

nuggets are delicious. So don't stop me from eating nuggets! though i know its unhealthy la. HAHA! but nice mah. the school one nice. i like. AIYA. se la. now i have a craving for nuggets..

EATING

2008-04-05T05:29:00.001-07:00

i think eating is very fun so foo suwenn, eat!!! Must enjoy all the food in school before we leave. and the cheap canteen food. cheap=eating more!! Think when we come out to society, good food will be easy to find but hard to reach. won't be within our fingertips. Won't be able to just eat whatever we want..Or maybe, I won't be able to eat what i want): BooHOO! and a good eating companion is hard to find too. But i found one!
HAHA! OH. anyway, i'm at home on a good saturday weekend. studied. So studious right? Be proud of me! I want to get a 9 for my O'levels! 9, a very nice number!(:
Watching NUTTY PROFESSOR. very nutty. he's currently losing his intelligence. HAHA.

2008-04-05T05:26:00.000-07:00

SUWENN? DON"T YOU SPAM MY BLOG AH!

today

2008-04-05T05:18:00.000-07:00

anyway, i realised i don't eat very much these days. i eat much lesser than i used to..used to be able to stuff myself but now, one three meals a day feels more than enough. THOUGH i still eat more than my friends. talk about dieting, ONE of my friend just won't eat during recess. its such an important meal! i mean, before cca we have about one hour to eat. maybe half an hour because of the extra lessons we have now. But that's not enough time to digest your food before going for training! So lunch should be eaten during recess and lunch time is catch-up time with your friends! (Or for muggers, studying la)

Life so far

2008-04-05T04:39:00.001-07:00

AHH. talk about me so far. I've just played B'div 08. this is a latest post.
i haven't touched blogs since sec two? HAHA. because no time and patience. and interest. well now, i feel a sudden urge to write out for everyone to read. well. talk about so far. We lost the semis. and the finals. so we beat ALMOST everyone in the qualifyings to lose the two most important matches!! AHA! but its over. so all i can do is talk about it. Or forget about it. so i shall FORGET about it. not worth me thinking so much.

I feel proud though! Because we made it far. I didn't think we could last in the qualifying. Was just taking a step at a time. well. I'm proud people did give their best. so yeah, its a team game so if you want to blame someone blame everyone. yep. Anyway, yeah. life goes on and I'm going to have my o'levels soon! so fast. left..197 days? didn't keep count. but that's what it wrote on my class whiteboard. suppose to motivate us but it made me so nervous. NOT PREPARED!! oh man. Makes me feel sick.

2006-07-23T05:35:00.000-07:00

i hate the days now. so many projects. its enough. want me to die is it? not so easily. aiya. a game is a game. i think i will just forget about it. let me stone for once and try to throw away this offending memories.

ok. i'm done.

2006-07-23T05:13:00.000-07:00

and guess what. we played really well. for th first time. i can't say how good. but i didn't play well. guess my speed really suck that day. don't like myself playing so lousily. wasted. we could have been so much better. don't know my leg froze or something on that day. the pitch felt like its gonna swallow me whole.

crazy woman.

2006-07-23T05:05:00.000-07:00

today is a horrible day. i just recovered from my shock at losing. getting out. not even qualified. for the tournament. feeling so depress. the last few days kinda passed really fast with a blink of an eye. What's there left in my memories are the little victory like winning pathetically a 5:0 to some school. though i made a bet of winning some thing more. not that we're not good. this team of c'div 05 girls are really good. we can do it. what we lack is something even deeper. not able to see with the human eye. guess i'll never know what is it. i'm so tired of losing. we're all champions. what happened to us?

2006-04-09T02:19:00.000-07:00

hey. another blog done. finally. i never get it done man. ayway i think its pretty lousy job anyway. no time at my side though. signing off.